Last night it dawned on me that yesterday was kind of like one of those dreaded DTR conversations. ELIC and I have had many conversations, shared some prayers, then came the time for us to really invest ourselves in each other, I thought that there was only one possible outcome after all of the years that have passed, my burning desire to work with them, and how seriously I took the application. Then along came yesterday. The decision that was not mine.
This decision now has me still investing myself, moving forward, and taking it to the next level, but I thought there was only one next level. It turns out that there isn't.
So, in my mind, we are dating. It is not an engagement -- support raising for going there long term will be the engagement process.
At first I thought of it as "China and I" are dating, but China is not Christian. No, she is communist and "officially" atheist. God says no to those sorts of things. So, ELIC and I are dating. And now I understand more why guys are afraid of seeking out these sorts of relationships.
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